Dear Mom
Hate to hurt your feelings. It pains me to see you sad and disappointed with me. The resignation in your face tore my heart away. It's him. He made me hurt you. He made me into a monster. Into what I am today. He made me submit, weak and helpless. He stamped my freedom and he broke me. Turned me into what I am today - a worthless piece if shit. Forgive me for I have sinned. Forgive me for abandoning you in your twilight years. You have given me life and this is how I repay you. Dear God. Give her peace. Grant her wishes and place upon her among your faithfuls.
He only thinks of himself. How hurt he was by your actions. He didn't think how hurt I would be. He didn't consider the fact that I have feelings too. He didn't know all these because I was too stupid to open my mouth.
I let him rule me. I let him decide. The clothes I wear, the way I talk, the money I earned, even the way I sneezed.
I am trapped. Helpless. There is no way out because I'll be at the losing end.
After life with him, I thought love didn't exist anymore. There is no such thing. I forgot about your unconditional love. I forgot about how the kids love me too although I'm always losing patience with them.
I regret being like this. Being the worthless thing that I am. I just want you to know that you're a good woman.
I love you mum...
